santanalopez-:

Brittany, I…

Screw this, I’m not going to hold back.

Sure, you talk to me. You wave. You smile. You did the exact same things when you were with Artie, but that didn’t make it hurt less. Am I going to say you were wrong? No. I’m a bitch, okay? I’m a fuck up who doesn’t talk about her feelings, and pushes everyone else way to the point where no w literally NO ONE wants to talk to me without capitalization and screaming matches.

But just because you were right and I was wrong about that, that doesn’t mean you were right about everything. I’m allowed to be upset for missing how we used to be. And last night was just me letting off steam after an entire week of bottling it up. I don’t think you, or Q, or anyone else hates me the way I talked last night. I just needed a place to get out all the stupid moronic stuff that circles my head on a second by second basis. 

So maybe you might have done the wrong thing, but that doesn’t make me less upset by the fact that now I literally have fucked up every relationship I have. 

No, I didn’t do the wrong thing. I did what I needed to do and you weren’t the only one who got hurt by it. If you want to have good relationships, you need to stop trying to be tough and independent and let someone in once in a while. No one knows better than I do just how often that happens (like, never) and that’s exactly why everyone got so upset with you. You don’t think that it broke my heart to break up with the only girl I’ve ever loved because she was so unhappy all the time? Well, it did. Do you see me freaking out? Swearing at people? Being rude to my best friends? No. This is why we broke up, Santana. You have to stop trying to be so hard and learn how to handle things in a healthy way. Learn how to take a step back from the situation, take a deep breath, and ask to talk to somebody. Maybe then you’ll figure out that you don’t need anyone else to make you happy because you can be happy when it’s just you and your thoughts.